waiting for it...

I just broke up with my boyfriend and it's sunk in a little bit but I'm waiting for the crazy hit when I can't do anything. Right now I'm trying really hard to just do my work, keep talking to my friends about the situation (minimal amount) so that it doesn't stay bottled in. However, I'm not sure how much I'm telling and keeping to myself. Hating myself over something I may have done in the relationship isn't going to fix anything but it's a natural reaction. Hopefully the blow won't be terrible, but I am anticipating it.