man fear

What is probably one of my only if not the only fear in life is oddly enough men. There is something about most of them that I find very frightening. I have irrational fears that they want to hurt me physically. I find a lot of men to be quite predatory. Like the whole chase courting scenario that a lot of people have in their head, what if I don't find it playful & I'm actually trying to run away from you? I feel like usually the only men I feel comfortable around are ones that are totally non threatening to me such as prepubescent children & much older people. I'd also like to add a strange observation that if I learn that someone is gay I often feel relieved & happy. I hope I'm not a crazy.