And yes it's that time of the year again....

I honestly don't really understand Stony Brook. It seems that I have another round of midterms this week. I don't know what's going on. Last week I had tests, this week I have more tests, this semester just seems so much more effort then last year. Tomorrow I actually have a test in Buddhism, yea wohoo!! No, not really. On my Hinduism test a couple weeks ago, I studied for 6 hours straight the night before. I think I may study 2 nights before for his test. It's weird for me though I wait till the last minute for everything. I'm going to start now, sooooooooooo wish me luck.....

crappy wednesday

everytime, i feel like i had a shitty day, i go on F my Life and read other people's stories. after this I feel 10 times better. yes, other people's crappy days make my crappy day a little better. sad but true. i'll admit it.

this week, i had my orgo and bio competency test and just spent the entire week doing intense studying for these two tests. after my orgo test on wednesday night, i felt pretty crappy because my index card for orgo was completely useless. i didn't even look at it and the questions on the test was basically, stupid. i don't think i did well and not going to check my grade until after tuesday afetr i take 2 more tests. i also don't want to ruin my weekend. everytime i take a test, i just want to get from the test site to my room without people talking about it and seeing which answers they put. why can't they just wait?

it was really cold wednesday night so i took the bus instead of walking back to H quad. the bus waited for 10 minutes and eveyone on that bus was tlaking about the orgo test. what did you put for this question? why is it this answer? blah blah blah, just shut up.

the testing system

Since I entered the schooling system as a five year old, I have always been a horrible test taker. I find it to be such a stressful experience, and unnatural environment to see what you have learnt from a certain situation. I love learning, and I understand that of course there has to be a way to examine what someone has taken from a class, but I find it unfair that a system that some people can succeed at with ease can be so detrimental to people that have learnt as much, but maybe can't express themselves the same way through the testing system.

I have a huge problem with the SAT system as well, and hated trying to memorize certain techniques that would hopefully come up in the exam. Is this really how we're judging kids today? How fair is it that someone who could bullshit their way through a standardized test could get a spot in College over someone who might be just as or even more intelligent? I really think this is why there is such a high college dropout rate (aside from economics), because the way in which we are "prepared" is bogus - and the thought process is much different as you advance in education, except that bloody testing system will always remain. Ridiculous.